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I'm beginning my meditational journey w/training wheels using holosync, so I'm listening to the holosync program "prologue."
the first 3 days weren't optimal:
1 - i was disrupted and couldn't get back into state;
2 - did it in the morning but dozed off for about 1-5mins (at least that's how it felt);
3 - actually did it right upon waking up... stayed up too! was interrupted early on in the beginning of meditation (annoying), but got back into it...
when "going into trance," I first noticed something rubbing against my neck. haha... only to find that it was the collar of my shirt rubbing as my head was slowly lowering. well, that was unexpected as i next noticed my muscles relaxing - legs, arms, neck, shoulders. felt completely awake, but just relaxed. initially my mind was wandering on various thots. i noticed that if i didn't intentionally direct my mind, the distractional thots could last longer than i'd like them to, so i had to clear my mind and just focus on the sounds from the headset - which helped... that was when the above physical relaxation process began shortly after.
anyway, just interesting how quickly i could relax naturally w/o intending to and by just listening to the cd.
i guess this will count as day 0 (i'll count day1 when i'm not distracted nor fall asleep)!
****** UPDATE: 3/24 MIDNITE **********
so i've been trying to put in about (2) 30m sessions (once in the morning and once at nite)... but at least fit in once a day for my 30m meditation. it's been about a week now and i can't say i've been quite successful yet at having a "pure" session (where i don't fall asleep or am interrupted somehow). I have managed to avoid further interruptions (that's the easy part). as for the falling asleep part... haha... well... i've been able to do that only ONCE so far (during a morning session). the experience was interesting, but nothing groundbreaking - just felt very relaxed. a few times i coulda sworn i heard things.. talking or movement? weird... but that was maybe only 1 or 2 sessions for a brief moment. other times, i'd fall asleep for about (i'd guess) a min or 2 or 3 towards the middle or end. i know it's towards the end b/c after it ends, i wake up. that's kinda weird... like a light sleep? i dunno.
tonite i had just ZONED.. i don't think i was asleep... but i couldn't really tell. i've tried meditation consistently for a two month period (3x's a week for ~2hrs at a time) and have noticed the same kind of symptoms... i'd go blank (but my eyes would be opened focused on a point in the room)... i couldn't tell (like tonite) if i fell asleep for a moment or not. when i did regain consciousness or awareness, i noticed that my jaw and part of my neck (tonite) was VERY RELAXED... kinda numb and heavy... really weird feeling.
i got a copy of the holosync cd (cd1 -awakening) from a friend, but he has no manual or info. i may just buy the system, but will see how this first cd goes first!
maybe i'll google info about symptoms of meditation just to see what i find - if what i'm experiencing is typical (i imagine it is).
anyone care to share their first experiences or "symptoms" of meditating - aside from the obvious of feeling refreshed, relaxed, rejuvinated?
thanks!
I'm beginning my meditational journey w/training wheels using holosync, so I'm listening to the holosync program "prologue."
the first 3 days weren't optimal:
1 - i was disrupted and couldn't get back into state;
2 - did it in the morning but dozed off for about 1-5mins (at least that's how it felt);
3 - actually did it right upon waking up... stayed up too! was interrupted early on in the beginning of meditation (annoying), but got back into it...
when "going into trance," I first noticed something rubbing against my neck. haha... only to find that it was the collar of my shirt rubbing as my head was slowly lowering. well, that was unexpected as i next noticed my muscles relaxing - legs, arms, neck, shoulders. felt completely awake, but just relaxed. initially my mind was wandering on various thots. i noticed that if i didn't intentionally direct my mind, the distractional thots could last longer than i'd like them to, so i had to clear my mind and just focus on the sounds from the headset - which helped... that was when the above physical relaxation process began shortly after.
anyway, just interesting how quickly i could relax naturally w/o intending to and by just listening to the cd.
i guess this will count as day 0 (i'll count day1 when i'm not distracted nor fall asleep)!
****** UPDATE: 3/24 MIDNITE **********
so i've been trying to put in about (2) 30m sessions (once in the morning and once at nite)... but at least fit in once a day for my 30m meditation. it's been about a week now and i can't say i've been quite successful yet at having a "pure" session (where i don't fall asleep or am interrupted somehow). I have managed to avoid further interruptions (that's the easy part). as for the falling asleep part... haha... well... i've been able to do that only ONCE so far (during a morning session). the experience was interesting, but nothing groundbreaking - just felt very relaxed. a few times i coulda sworn i heard things.. talking or movement? weird... but that was maybe only 1 or 2 sessions for a brief moment. other times, i'd fall asleep for about (i'd guess) a min or 2 or 3 towards the middle or end. i know it's towards the end b/c after it ends, i wake up. that's kinda weird... like a light sleep? i dunno.
tonite i had just ZONED.. i don't think i was asleep... but i couldn't really tell. i've tried meditation consistently for a two month period (3x's a week for ~2hrs at a time) and have noticed the same kind of symptoms... i'd go blank (but my eyes would be opened focused on a point in the room)... i couldn't tell (like tonite) if i fell asleep for a moment or not. when i did regain consciousness or awareness, i noticed that my jaw and part of my neck (tonite) was VERY RELAXED... kinda numb and heavy... really weird feeling.
i got a copy of the holosync cd (cd1 -awakening) from a friend, but he has no manual or info. i may just buy the system, but will see how this first cd goes first!
maybe i'll google info about symptoms of meditation just to see what i find - if what i'm experiencing is typical (i imagine it is).
anyone care to share their first experiences or "symptoms" of meditating - aside from the obvious of feeling refreshed, relaxed, rejuvinated?
thanks!
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